Of Lizards and Motorcycles

Geeze o' Pete it's farkin' hot. I don't like the heat. Once the temperature gets to around 90° outside, my air conditioner just doesn't cut it. To make matters worse, apparently the hose that drains the moisture from the central air unit is clogged up and water is backing up and flooding the hallway. Fun times here in Frog Pond Holler!

Now that I've got the whining out of the way...

Thursday, as I was working my little behind off (hush ... I was to) the urge for a cigarette became the only thing I could think about. I quit in January and most of the time it doesn't bother me anymore, but occasionally it hits and I could eat a pack of Basic Lights. There are still two people in the office who smoke and sometimes I get a whiff of nicotine, especially when the GM comes in from sneaking one and decides to waller me around and call me his angel (what? ya'll didn't think it was my work ethic that keeps me employed did ya?)

When the urge hits for a cigarette I go outside on the steps and watch the birds, take a few deep breaths and try to focus on something else. On Thursday, as I stood out there leaning against the railings, I spotted something moving in the mulch. My first reaction was that it was a snake, because I'm paranoid that way. I think everything is a snake at first. I soon realized it was a lizard, one of those cute little blue tailed ones. I watched him scurry around looking for bugs then run cross the steps in front of me. I had my camera with me but he wouldn't stay still long enough for me to get a shot. I kept an eye on him until he disappeared in a hole behind the concrete step.

I didn't give it much thought at the time, there's no tellin' what kind of wildlife you'll see out there. The next day, when I'd been sitting at my desk for too long and needed to stretch my legs, I went back outside and stood on the steps to get some fresh air. I leaned against the railing and glanced down at something I saw moving by the steps. There, poking it's little head out from the hole, was a lizard just like the one I'd seen the day before. He looked around for a second, then scurried along the mulch running back and forth looking for bugs then disappeared around the corner of the building.

Now, I don't know for sure if it was the same lizard, but it would still seem to be a big coinki dink to see one in the exact same spot I'd seen one the day before, regardless if it were the same one or not. That is, if you believe in coincidences.

I've been thinking a lot lately about how I've been out of touch with things of a spiritual nature. I used to pay attention to signs and dreams but for the past few months I guess my head hasn't been in the right place. So when I saw the lizard two days in a row, I Googled the meaning of the lizard totem. From http://www.linsdomain.com/totems/pages/lizard.htm I found this:

Lizard medicine is the shadow side of reality where your dreams are reviewed before you manifest them physically.
If you have a Lizard totem, listen to our own intuition above anyone else's.Pay attention to your dreams for they show us what we do not perceive when awake.Dreams are shadows showing your fears and hopes.Make a dream log and record your dreams. Look for your symbolic and reoccurring dreams and study them carefully.
Lizard can also teach you to become more detached in life.Sometimes it is necessary to separate yourself from others to accomplish what is necessary.Lizard helps you awaken the ability for objective detachment.It can show you how to break from the past.
Well, in the past couple of weeks I've dreamed about staying at a campground for motorcyclists on the beach and having to take a riding test to prove I rode well enough to join the volunteer security.. thingie. I've also had this recurring theme surrounding bakeries and had someone in a dream teaching me how to physically manifest objects in my hand.
And on that note, I'm going to get ready for bed. I'll let ya'll draw your own conclusions.